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Journal Entry: Wed Oct 8, 2008, 11:41 AM

  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Burzum
  • Reading: Schoolwork
  • Watching: Pulp Fiction
  • Eating: Imitation Meat Loaf
  • Drinking: water

~ Tíðendi

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 25, 2008, 1:03 PM


waste


First off, let me say this regarding Darfur and pretty much every other internal conflict in the world, to include Iraq and Afghanistan: it's not my problem. Or, to put it correctly, it's not the problem of the American taxpayers. Or, to put it even more correctly, it's not the problem of taxpayers, governments, economies, etc. across the globe. I'm tired of the United States trying to be big brother to every other country whose citizens want to fight each other. Why don't you try being big brother to your own economy first, Mr. Head of State, before you traipse off to pacify someone else's war? Why don't you solidify what you already have, Delegates to the United Nations, before you try to fix someone else's problems? Someone who really does want to fight and doesn't want the peace you're trying to force down their throats. Someone whose problems arise from their own shitty decisions and are therefore their own fault. I could name several instances where the USA has gotten involved when it should have kept its fucking nose out, but I'll only mention one for now: Vietnam. It makes me irate to think of how much better off the American economy would be, and the economy of every other country over here would be if they hadn't had to dump billions of dollars into this coalition in Iraq and Afghanistan. I'll agree that a response was needed to 911, sure. But not an invasion of Afhganistan. Did they invade us? No. Why are you going to waste all that manpower and money when a simple response in kind would have been sufficient and much better? They "bombed" us. We should have just sent several B2's over here and laid waste to this fucking country. And you know what? If civilians were to die if we'd done that ... our civilians died, too. And as for invading Iraq ... I'd love to see the collective look on our government's face if some other country had tried to tell us what we could and couldn't do in our own sovereign state. That's what we did to Iraq. And when we didn't get the response we wanted, we threw a tantrum. I'm seriously wanting to emigrate to New Zealand or something - this country's worldview and self-importance make the bile rise in my throat. I'll shut up now, because our whole involvement in the Middle East is about Peak Oil and Dick Cheney's warmongering anyway.


goatees and portfolios


Now, after that lengthy vitriolic introduction, I bid everyone good day. I'm now more than two-thirds of the way through this deployment, yay. (By the way, none of that up there is because I'm over here. I'd still feel the same way if I was a long-haired hippie civilian and had never even seen an Air Force uniform.) There's still not a whole lot to do out here, which is what has given rise to the deluge of poetry I've spewed forth lately, some of which has been good, I think, and some of which has not been as good. Anyway, it's nice to be writing again. I'm starting a couple college courses online with the University of Maryland in a few days, and in a few weeks after I obtain a GED and take the SAT I'll be applying for full-time school next fall. I'm getting out of the military next August, and already plan to not cut my hair for at least five years, pierce my eyebrow and ears, and grow a massive goatee. I can almost taste the individualism returning. I may actually feel like I have free will again. I have to stay a well-behaved little Airman until then, though, if I want a glowing performance report to show with my next job application. I'm hoping to get a weather job at an airport near school, since that's the area in which I have the most training, but if there's no weather-related openings nearby, then I'll have to pull something out of my ass, I guess. Still having trouble deciding what to major in - I've narrowed it down to English, Web Design, or Fine Art (with a calligraphy concentration). The latter two would probably offer the better-paying jobs (or at least Web Design would), but the problem is that even though I can do both of them fairly well, I don't have any kind of really solid portfolio to show. I can get pictures of all the calligraphy pieces I've done, and that will make a decent portfolio, I suppose, but a lot of my web design stuff got lost when CoG was hacked, and I've never really made anything stunning and original anyway. So I'm a tad bit discouraged about college, and the kicker is that all of it is my own fault anyway.


meet 'n' greet


Anyway, I've met some new people here on dA, just as I said I would, and I hope to meet many more. Here's all the folk whose acquaintance I've had the pleasure of making:

:iconx-lesbian-x: :iconholyrose: :iconaillesdors: :iconndean: :iconthecakeisalie03: :iconz-zag-girl:


Go check them and their galleries out, you won't be disappointed!

That's about all I've got for now, I'm afraid. I'm working on a little sub-website to my main poetry blog, designed both to put forward a worldview of mine, and to have something to include in a website portfolio if I decide to take that route with school.

I hope everyone has a great day! I'll talk to you later!


~ Aaron


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  • Mood: Satisfied
  • Listening to: Bal-Sagoth
  • Watching: The Dark Knight
  • Eating: Ham & Eggs
  • Drinking: Coke

~ Tíðendi

Journal Entry: Mon Sep 1, 2008, 12:27 PM


tidings


Hello to everyone who may read this, my old watchers and friends, and any new ones who may come in the near or distant future. There has been many a change in my life since last I posted a real journal entry here on dA. I have moved to San Antonio, obtained a divorce, met new people, had new experiences - many good but some not as much, started a relationship with a great girl, and, most recently, been sent to war. I am in Afghanistan until January, when I'll be sent back to San Antonio to finish up my enlistment, which ends in August.

It was here in Afghanistan that I, lonely and bored, took thought for the good times I once had on dA. This combined with a surge of poetry-writing which occured shortly after I arrived here to turn me back here again. So I've resubscribed, fashioned a new journal design (aided greatly by this lovely skin from `toiabates), and have been submitting poetry. I'm also collecting some stamps here and there to include in my journal posts to indicate what mood I'm in or what I'm into at the moment. I plan to continue writing poetry as much as I can and to perhaps submit some imagery as well. I haven't done very much graphically lately, partially because the connection here is crummy and I'd be waiting forever on stock images, but also because I realized that what I was making, in my opinion at least, might look interesting and everything, but really isn't up to par with the from-scratch stuff people have here on dA. But we'll see.

I plan to read and view many deviations; to comment and favorite many different things. I hope to meet some new folk and make some new friends. I hope to find some people and critique each other's poetry, perhaps another group to join in addition to ~RAWEMOTION, even though I will continue to be active in that group's contests and things. Also, in my journal posts I will be featuring deviantions which I will have recently viewed or read and have impressed me greatly. deviantArt is a community, and to truly experience this one should reach out to as many people as possible. Such is my plan.

Now, an explanation about the recent poetry themes and the design of this journal. I have always had a fascination with all things Norse, but recently I have become enamoured with everything Nordic, Icelandic, Finnish, Swedish, and Scandinavian - essentially I've had a kind of Viking epiphany. What brought all this about was that my girlfriend got me into Black Metal (though I still retain my love for goth, industrial, electro, Manson, classical, and everything else), and in particular a sub-genre called Viking or Folk Metal. Enslaved was where I started, and they are still the ones I like best of this style so far, but I soon branched out into Bathory, Vintersorg, and Moonsorrow - but most recently Ensiferum, whom I really, really like. I'm going to be looking into many other groups over the next few weeks. But this music reawakened my old love of Norse legends and mythology, and I've been reading The Nibelungenlied, The Volsungasaga, the Eddas, and The Kalevala. It was only egged on further when I read The Lord of the Rings again, since I hadn't in a while - Tolkien's poetry of Rohan is so reminiscent of the Scandinavian epics. Hence the poetry and the journal design.

As for the distant future, I'm taking all the subject tests available so that I can place out of basic college courses when I get out of the military. My plan is to go to school full-time next fall. Where I'm not sure yet, neither am I decided on what I will declare as a major. I've thought of majoring in Web Design, Graphic Design, English, Film, German, and probably a dozen other things. There's just too much I'm interested in, y'see. I've still got a little while to decide, but I'll have to make up my mind soon.

For now, though, I hope everyone is having a great day, and thanks for glancing at my journal. I hope you enjoy the few pieces of poetry I submit. I hope to talk to many of you and develop some friendships or at least acquaintances. So, until then, ferð vel!


~ Aaron



P.S. If you are reading this, I trust you'll know I'm speaking to you in this postscript. I know that I played a part in us drifting apart, and I deeply apologize for what I did and said. I'd like to try and put what happened behind us and have a friendship again, if you would be willing.


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  • Mood: Satisfied
  • Listening to: Ensiferum
  • Drinking: Coke

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

Sat May 31, 2008, 3:19 PM
  • Mood: Neutral
Now that I have your attention ... I finally got around to making myself a new website. And this is one that I'll stick with, as long as my email box doesn't get filled with porno and viagra spam. :/

Anyway, I'll be blogging there with updates on my afghanistan experiences, and when I create a new video, write a new poem, blah, blah, blah.

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roast beef sammich

Journal Entry: Thu May 31, 2007, 2:10 PM
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: Eat Me, Drink Me ~ Manson
  • Reading: Schoolwork
  • Watching: Rio Bravo
  • Playing: Spades
  • Eating: Ramen
  • Drinking: Malibu
Not that I'm particularly saying that my entire thought and current existence is hinging upon them, or that without one or several of them I will pass away, but I'm really thinking fondly and longingly about a nice roast beef sammich. Something like those which Charley's hand-makes to my specifications. Mmm. This whole sammich lust might be aggravated by the fact that the only thing I've put in my stomach for the last 12 hours has been an energy drink and two caffiene pills. But the image is burned into my brain, and I can see the deliciousness with my waking eyes: white sub bread just barely toasted until it's a light, light brown; grilled roast beef, freshly cooked and thinly cut, nice and thickly laid with still just a little bit of grease/juice/gravy/whatever; copious amounts of provolone (approximately 4 slices per 7 inches of sammich) with possibly 2 slices of cheddar as well; a minimum of 4 strips of bacon, though 6 would be preferable; and several well-spread dollops of mayonnaise. Add to this a goodly helping of fries, freshly made (since I will ask for fries without salt just so that they'll make a fresh batch - then salt them right away ) and with a little cup of ranch in which to dip said fries. The selection of drink is still up in the air: I'm trying to decide between a ginormous fountain Coca-Cola Classic, perfectly blended between carbonated water and syrup, or a german stein-sized tankard of Shiner, cold as hell and fresh from the tap.

Wow. I think I just had an orgasm. Can you say Quizno's for lunch? Wham-bam-thankya-ma'am. Subway is good, too, but I've had better experiences with toasted sub-ness at Quizno's. Of course, all this eatery debate would be negated should there be a Charley's in the nearby vicinity; but as there is not, desperate decisions must be made. I have already gone over the local terrain in my mind's eye: the nearest Quizno's is by happy chance some few hundred feet to the west of the base, within easy reach of a search-and-rescue operation conducted in the early afternoon. Shouldn't require a large number of personnel, or many vehicles; no armor or weaponry will need requesting. I am already hand-picking my strike team. Watches are synchronized and we're practicing our hand signals. Quizno's had better prepare for some incoming - Sammich Alpha and Sammich Bravo are about to vanish. Won't even see us coming cuz of the camouflage - we're invisible in this urban environment, what with our battle garb and our completely silent tactical gear. The anticipatory cigarette I'm going to be smoking will likely give us away, however. And, believe me, the post-sammich-intimacy smoke right after the mission is completed ... I'll be double-fisting me some nicotine.

Yay, this week is almost over. I know I've not posted hardly anything at all since the two Manson wallpapers (which no one apparently gave a shit about commenting, but it's OK, I see how it is ), but, as you might imagine from the previous journal post, things in my life have been quite turned upside down recently. I don't really feel like going into huge whining sessions on DA, such as the sort of things I was posting last time, because in my opinion such bitching only reveals one's immaturity or need for hand-holding. Suffice it to say that for the past several days I've not been in the best of moods, and that I don't see anything about that changing for the forthcoming time being. But, at least the work week is over in a few hours. Due to the fact that Memorial Day was Monday, and that this upcoming weekend will be a long weekend for me, the work week of which today is the last was only a three-day week. Sweetness in and of itself, but hot damn for tomorrow! Getting my next tattoo tomorrow at 1200 CST, wewterz. As some of you may know, I had been intending to get the Doors of Moria scrawled across my back, but I have since decided to go with another design. This one will perhaps not require as much time in the chair, though without a doubt a hefty chunk of the afternoon will be taken up by it. I'm getting a tribal wing/spine design, with the top section quite large, the wings stretching all the way from edge of shoulder blade to edge of shoulder blade, and the vertebrae extending all the way down and centered atop my backbone - the design at the bottom of the spine will be right above my tailbone. The one in the center of my chest was three hours right on the bone, and it hurt like a fucking bitch, so I'm pretty certain I'll be able to hold still and take this one across my back the entire time that he will need to get it inked in one day. I want it all done at once - don't feel like going back for seconds. At least this one will be only a single color, so shading will be simpler. He's already said he's gonna bust out his wide shader: 40 needles or so wired together. Yummay. No, actually I'm not scared or nervous at all - after the near-searing white-hot agony of the first one, I've found I actually enjoy the little pinching bite and dull dragging across the skin of the second two, and this will be about the same as the last couple. I'm really looking forward to it, not just because the finished product will be awesome, but because I love the process. Anyway, here's the design I'm going to get - wish me luck; I'll post some shots of it once it's finished.




Oh yeah, I got pissed last night. I was watching me some John Wayne movies (Big Jake and Rio Bravo) that I bought for cheap at Wal-Mart. At the same time, I was (a) going through and correcting a couple small errors in my journal CSS to make it display properly in IE; (b) making a John Wayne stamp just because I wanted to, and (c) typing out a journal update to post. However, evidently the somewhat hefty amount of Malibu I had consumed was likely weighing rather heavily on my lithe, tender figure, and so I found myself dozing through a couple scenes of Rio Bravo. This was easily repaired: rewind ftw. However, when I turned back to my machine, I found that, while dozing, I must have clicked a few too many times on this button or that, closed the tab in question - something or other, because the FireFox tab in which I was working upon my journal was closed. And, like a retard, I didn't type it up in Notepad and then paste it over to DA, like I usually do. So I lost it all. And since I was already sleepy, I was like fuck this noise, I'm going to bed. Damn, that was aggravating. But, it was nice to see some John Wayne again. I haven't seen anything with him in a while, unless you count that I Love Lucy episode. I don't. I love his westerns, especially the ones filmed in the latter half of his career. The classic, solid American role model, kicking ass and taking names. Plus, John Wayne reminds me so fucking much of my grandfather, and my grandfather reminds me so fucking much of John Wayne, and nearly everyone who knows my granddad says this. I can understand similiar moderate profanity, similiar attitude and gruff demeanor, even perhaps body language - but in the face? Seriously, they look nearly exactly alike, especially a few years ago when my granddad was a little younger - the similarity was absolutely amazing. Expressions, color, clenched teeth and angry lips when pissed - honestly, when Granddaddy was in a shitty mood, you'd happen to turn around, and you'd nearly duck from instinct because it would look like John Wayne was sitting in the recliner only four feet away, about to pull a piece on you. Sure comes in handy when dealing with assholes in the antique mall parking lot, though.

Anyway, we've got a test here in a couple minutes, so I'm going to close this channel. In addition to the whole tattoo excitement, I have plans to watch me a couple Star Trek movies tonight: ()The Undiscovered Country and First Contact. The Wrath Of Khan is my personal favorite of all of them, but I've seen it fairly recently. Haven't seen The Undiscovered Country in a good little while (second best of the series, but best score, hands down), and I haven't seen First Contact in a longer time than any of the others. So tonight should be fun. Rum and Star Trek ftw. Then tomorrow ... tatt time! So take it easy guys, and remember that I am constant as the Northern Star.

P.S. Wrote everything above this postscript in the morning, but was unable to post it since I can't get on DA on the military machines. To conclude the open-ended roast beef sammich mission: Operation Au Jus was completed with a success rating of 100%. All objectives were achieved with satisfactory timeliness, and all previously identified sammich-type targets were eliminated. For a more detailed debriefing: I destroyed a sammich on rosemary parmesean bread, with a good-sized amount of thinly sliced roast beef (soaked in a delicious au jus sauce prior to being entrenched on said sammich), two lovely slices of swiss cheese laid atop the roast beef, a french onion sauce applied to the entire sammich, and a fan-fucking-tastic sprinkle of bacon to top off the experience. The sammich was run through the toaster-browner-thingie, and was swiftly consumed with a sack of Sun Chips and a Dr. Pepper. All-in-all, a completely acceptable result to a perfectly planned mission. Over and out.

P.P.S. Started a poll which most of you, especially those of the female-gender-persuasion, will likely find interesting. Check it out. Peace.



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